.My Words Won't Come.

I am sure that most of my friends read Ann Voskamp. She is one of my favorites. Most of her posts find their way right into the depth of my heart. Recently Ann went on a trip for Compassion International. I have devoured her posts since then. I just want to know what it is like to experience another country and poverty and then come back to....this excess. I am trying to prepare my heart for our trip to Ethiopia. I already do not fit in here anymore. I truly feel like a square peg in a round hole. Jim and I used to whisper into our pillows and each others ears about our plans to remodel our home to make it bigger and better. What kind of vacation we would save up for next, and what new gadget we needed to purchase. Now we fall asleep whispering to each other about how many more orphans our home can hold or dreaming about selling everything and moving to Africa with other families whose heart beats in the same rhythm as ours.

Yesterday I read Ann's post, and I cannot get this out of my head and heart.

“The world, your community.. even your family — they are going to try to push you back to the middle. North America feels pretty comfortable in the middle. Balance, everyone says. I don’t know what Jesus is going to say to you.. How He might direct your life now… just don’t assume He wants you to live in the middle. Be open to the possibility …. Of something radically different.” (This was said to her Compassion group as they were leaving by Shaun Groves.)

I feel a lot more waiting to spill out, but for now my words will not come. Please go to Ann's site and read this beautiful post.

(And I would love to discuss with any of you that have gone before me and are living this new reality. I will respond to comments here today.)

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.Forget the American Dream.

I had another post scheduled for today, but then I watched this youtube video this morning. God laid it on my heart that I have to share this instead.



God keeps bringing this message to our family in various ways. It is part of what made us soft towards adoption. This way of living for Jesus Christ - living radically is scary and hard. But I think it is right.

What would happen if, we as Christians, actually lived radically?

What would our churches look like?

I think God is trying to do something radical in my family right now.

I keeping thinking God may have more in store for us besides adoption.

What do you think?

(I have not listened to this series yet, but I plan to very soon. Here is a link for the whole radical series.)
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