We are headed into our eighth month living here in Addis
Ababa, Ethiopia. We continue to love this city and the people, and to feel as
if we are exactly where God wants us to be. We have spent half a year intentionally leaning into God and His purpose
for us here. Some original plans fell through, and God clearly has pointed us
in the direction of creating a brand new indigenous NGO for street children.
This is way bigger than what we had prepared for, but it is exactly how God
loves to display His perfect strength - in our broken weakness. As God’s
purpose and plans have been unfolded we continue to solidify our methodology
and philosophy for working with children, and at its simple core it comes down
to pursuit. For years we have seen how the Gospel, how Jesus, pursues. Jesus
doesn’t wait for us to be ready for change or to even have a desire for change.
He doesn’t wait until we have cleaned ourselves up, or have outwardly changed
our behaviors, so that we look as if
we measure up to His standards, because the truth is there is nothing inside of
us that can change or even be ready with a desire to change outside of the
working, initiation, and pursuit of Jesus Christ. If we are to be imitators of
Jesus, then we must pursue, and that pursuit must be relentless and not
dependent upon anything that the child/person does. Through much thinking and
praying a three part purpose for Mercy Branch Inc. emerged. A purpose that we
believe in and see beautifully exemplified in the Gospel. The three parts must
coexist but flow from the first one, and are as follows: relentless pursuit of the whole person, radical grace, and reverent
mercy. That’s easy to write, and lovely to think about, and I really do
believe deep inside that it is the core of the Gospel. But let me tell you,
that there are far, far easier philosophies and methodologies out there than
this one, and the past few weeks as we cemented God’s plans and purposes and
committed to establishing an NGO that echoes the Gospel, the enemy has attacked
the very heart of what we want to do. It’s as if God is allowing us to be
tested in this very commitment right here in our own family.
Is this what you
really believe?
Are you really willing
to pursue like I have pursued you? Because it is hard, messy, and it hurts.
I am going to try to be transparent with you, and yet be
ambiguous enough to still protect the privacy of my family. Although we know
beyond a shadow of a doubt that we are exactly where we should be, these past
few weeks have been very, very hard for our family. Everything kind of
crescendoed today when my children found their puppy had died. It’s time for a
little honesty and to get our spiritual boxing gloves on, and to gather our
people around us in solidarity and prayer. I am sick and tired of the cowardly
way that Satan is attacking our family – by targeting our children. It started
way back in February, when it was brought to our attention that rumors were
flying, and apparently had been for years, about our family. Disgusting,
filthy, and grotesque accusations that “Christians” were giving ears to and
seemingly perpetuating. We were crushed. It seems so many times when we seek
out authentic community with believers, we are instead wounded and betrayed.
Sadly these rumors really involved our oldest child. Satan is very crafty, and
he knows our weaknesses and insecurities so intimately. He knew these horrible
speculations would plant a huge seed of doubt in our child’s, already
traumatized heart. He knew the way to do it was to attack family and have
adults question his very identity in our family. It literally makes me shake
with anger even as I type this. As parents we desire to protect and nurture the
hearts of our children and give them security as a member of our family. This
is an especially unique challenge when your child has spent years rejected,
abandoned, abused, and not part of any family. Unfortunately, Satan used these
lies to manipulate, not only the minds of people, but also our child. He used
other lies as well, but all of the lies built upon these rumors. These lies
culminated in us coming dangerously close to losing our son. I cannot and will
not go into specific details – none are needed. It was the most horrifying,
terrifying, and painful experience that we have ever had as parents (and we
have had our fair share prior to this). This is where the rubber met the road,
and we had to put all of our beliefs about the Gospel into practice – we had to
pursue and pursue and pursue. Behavior modification and trying to make a child
follow rules is so, so much easier than pursuing the heart and the entire child
with grace and mercy. Let me tell you that as a family, we all HURT, and
although it looks as if we are slowly limping to the other side, it still hurts,
and we are still pursuing – all four of our children through this ugly time.
Satan absolutely hates families. We believe that it is
inside of a family that healing can take place, and Satan would much rather
traumatized children never heal. We believe that street children can best
experience true healing and freedom in Jesus inside of a family – a family that
pursues at all costs. Our son is NO longer a street child, and we have treated
him as nothing less than our beloved son (because that is WHO HE IS), but we
have had to and continue to have to pursue him in crazy, intense ways. Knowing
so much about us and about families, course Satan is magnificent at attacking
and destroying families. BUT HE CAN’T HAVE MINE. We are surrounding ourselves
with truth from God’s Word, with the knowledge that Jesus is pursuing each one
of us, praise and worship music and very, very tangible reminders that we are a
family – family that God miraculously established. We have a team of counselors
firmly surrounding us, and we have God for us. To be honest, we still desire to
find community here with other Kingdom builders, but sadly we will now proceed
more cautiously. God has given us just one precious family to steward, to
cherish, to protect, and to build up for His Kingdom. This is our primary role
here on earth, at this time, no matter where we live, or what else God has
called us to.
Yesterday, Jim got to explicitly share the
Gospel with someone whom we love like family.
For almost eight months we have been praying and pursuing this person,
and we have gotten the privilege of watching Jesus pursue him. This morning we
hung up a gallery wall of family portraits to daily remind us that we are in
this together, and that we truly are FAMILY. At nearly the same time that we
experienced these glimpses of grace and mercy poured out over us, the
childrens’ beloved puppy unexpectedly died. They are grieving and hurting, as
she has played a vital role in comforting them here in a strange country so far
away from what they are familiar with. This is not just a coincidence. Satan is
alive and well, and he is not done with us. He sees something in us that
perhaps we cannot yet see. He is forecasting a future for our family here in
Ethiopia that terrifies him. I don’t know what he plans to do next or how he
will attack, but we are readying ourselves for this battle. Jim and I are
praying over our family, our marriage, and our future ministry with children
here in Addis, and we humbly ask you to do the same. We are so not special or
super-spiritual. We are messy. We are broken. We are normal – just a family who
desires to follow Jesus. We know that God wins in the end, but we desperately
desire to come to the end unified and together. Our family can’t be a casualty.
So I share this to ask you stand beside us in prayer. None of us were meant to
do this alone.
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