.I should be doing other things.

I sit at my computer with a mental checklist of things to do a mile long. Those window treatments I mentioned a few posts back still need to be sewn, I have over 100 photos from my last shoot that need to be edited, I have a Bible study to work through, dishes to be washed, floors to be cleaned, books to read, recipes to organize, and the list goes on. But here I sit.
God is doing some crazy things in our life right now. Things I cannot share at this moment. Things that make me scared out of my mind and question. And it is amazing how these "things" have tilted my world and brought it to a screeching hault. I told my best friend that now is when I need to put feet to my faith, and I fear I may fail. Scary.
Have you ever tried to go about your normal daily tasks with the weight of the world on your shoulders? It's kind of hard. I will be teaching my Cadi letters and sounds one moment and the next my mind is so entwined and wrapped up in these matters that I myself am forgetting what sound 'u' makes. It's disconcerting, but at the same time it is really refreshing to be in this constant communication with God. To breathe His name and seek His wisdom, help, and peace constantly - for really there is nothing left to do.
I have been pouring over the Scriptures searching for wisdom and answers and peace. I feel as if I cannot trust my heart, and I am trying to discern the Spirit's leading in the muddiness of my thoughts. Scripture is a big help in allowing me to hear "the voice of Truth". So I cling to that and to my God who holds the future. What do you cling to when your heart is anxious and unsure?
It is a strange season for our family. I covet your prayers.

"The Voice of Truth"

Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the Voice of truth says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

But the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the Voice of truth tells me a different story
The Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the Voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the Voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are the Voice of truth