I've found that sweet spot once again. You know the one? The spot that embraces your entire being and makes your soul soar? The sweet spot that one can only get to when she is following Jesus exactly where He calls? It's been a long, dark, hard winter. Excruciating really. Too much busyness, too much stress, too much anxiety. We knew God was calling us to something, but the Spirit wasn't being clear on where or how or when. There was a restlessness in our souls that consumed us. And then busyness, oh the busyness was intolerable. God did not create us for such busyness. He created us to be in relationships, and relationships are suffocated by busy. It was my deepest, darkest winter, my soul was buried, my joy was muffled, I was in a fog of doldrums - not quite depression, but more than the blues.
But I've come up for air and have been enveloped in that sweet spot, walking beside my Jesus, so full of contentment and joy and just plain happy, happy, happy. I am excited about our future. I have no idea how it will work out. We have to sell this house. We have to find another one. We have to come up with tuition for three kiddos next year, but I am at peace. I wouldn't rather be anywhere else right now than this very spot. We are planting a church - a very different church. And although Jesus has called us to this, there is absolutely no guarantee that the road He is paving will be a road of success for this church. We long for that. We long to build a community that is a beautiful part of the bride. We long to breathe life into the body and see the Kingdom grow. But we have no way of knowing what lies ahead.
For today I am so okay with that.
The sun is shining.
The birds are chirping.
And I am resting in that sweet spot.
I am guarding my heart and this sweet spot, because I know that the valleys and the mountains will come again. Sometimes following Jesus leads to this sweet spot and sometimes it leads to suffering. We participate in His joy and His suffering. The sweetness can only be tasted after the bitter. I think it is only noticed and fully reveled in after the bitter.
Reveling in it today.
When was the last time you hit that sweet spot? Are you there now?